First day in Chinese class. Scared shitless.
After half a month of not doing anything, sitting in a chair that belongs to a 12 year old at my cousins house in Korea, I realized I have done nothing to keep my ass away from the chair. I have done nothing but watch shows (I finished 2 seasons of Glee in 4 days), listen to music, and stay doing nothing like a couch potato. After watching my 12 year old cousin fidget over doing a one page homework assignment that is due in one hour, it hit me. I realized that I am still merely a child.
And this is why I decided to write this post. I once told Josh Smiley and Crystal that its been a while since I have had HUMAN CONTACT when I went out for Crystal’s birthday and for our Chongdae interview at UCLA. I realized that it was clearly all MY FAULT.
I have not tried to contact anyone other than my girlfriend MIA, whom I do adore very much. But the life choices that I have been making simply shows how immature I have been living and thinking. I always thought writing down my thoughts on a tumblr post wont give me any recognition from anyone. A childish thought. I always waited for people to talk to me because, I am lazy. While I can be enjoying a full on conversation about life, food, or Glee, I have done nothing to remain in contact with my friends.
So I feel sorry for myself for waiting and doing nothing and that this must stop. I must change if I want to keep those dear to me near me. Even if I am a thousand miles away from my friends, It wont hurt me for trying to at least get in contact, ask how they are, who they hung out with today. Just cause those questions haven’t been asked to me lately doesn’t mean I should neglect those who I do care about.
So lastly I would like to say I’m sorry friends. I guess I can give an excuse saying that I have been busy meeting my gramps and family. But still, I feel like I have neglected all of you for a while.